LOVE!!

Love is what I have for this amazing lady..whom I get to call Grandma!! Sadly her journey here on life ended today and she was accepted into the arms of Grandpa who waited a long 7 1/2 years for her. We went out with some friends last night and I left my phone at home and when I got home I had 10 missed calls all from my Dad and Sisters so right then I knew something was wrong. I called back and my Dad let me know that Grandma had slipped earlier and her health was taking a turn for the worst that I might want to get down and see her. It was already really late and I debated if I leave tonight or just wait for the morning. My gut and Husband encouraged me to go and I am SOOOOO glad I followed it. As I was driving to Bountiful a song came on about not living with regrets and not waiting for tomorrow, it was about a man loving some girl and not wanting to let her go but I felt like it worked in my situation as well. I have NO regrets about Grandma. So I am already a bloody mess when I get there:) I walked in and she was not responsive and looked very ill (something I was not used to seeing from her). I sat down and put my hand by hers and she held it the entire time (sometimes really tight which caused me to bleed:) She was gasping for air and they said it felt like to her she was suffocating which caused her to grab and dig into my hand. I talked and told her all about my kids and how they wanted to tell her they loved her and just sat and watched her. There were times she would open her eyes and focus on me but you could still tell she was looking beyond me and I believe she was starting to see Grandpa you could just see it in her eyes, I just kept imagining what a cool experience these two were about to have!! As I was getting ready to say my final good bye to her I stroked her face and told her how much I loved her she look straight at me and said "I love you too you are a sweetheart" How cool was that? Here she had not talked since 8 that morning and to hear that come from her. I knew that was my moment to leave and treasure those words FOREVER!! What an amazing experience and feeling. I felt so at peace with her continuing on her to her next journey. Who wouldn't?

Did I forget to tell you that she was 99, my kids think that is the coolest thing and tell everyone how "Old" she is. She raised 6 amazing children 26 grandchildren and 62 great-grandchildren. She lived life to the fullest full filled 2 missons for her church and touched the lives of anyone who came in contact with her. I will sure miss my trips to Bountiful to stop by and say hello even if it was for 5 min or 3 hours I hope she knows how much she meant to me. I am so glad she was just able to celebrate her 99th Birthday in March and we were able to come together as family!! I love you Grandma and will Miss you like CRAZY give Gramps and big hug and kiss from me!!

This was how she held my hand for an hour and a half. I should have taken a picture of the cuts and blood also:)

This was at her 99th Birthday

Loni, Lindsey, My Dad, Grams and Me

We had like 500 cameras snapping all at once hence why I am not looking

I love this picture!!

Grams, Me and Peyton

Peyton walked right up to Grams and told her Happy Birthday and how beautiful she looked, she was not lying!!

I thought it was cool that she still had her wedding ring on even though it was soo tight on her swollen little finger!!

Just wanted a little picture with Grams

I know..I know I am the only one smiling I guess I did not get the memo to be sad!!

I couldn't be sad for her I was so excited for her!!

My Sis Lindsey, My Dad, My Sis Loni and Me